Best of 2011 & Change for 2012
Top posts of 2011
My DIY Ice Cream Bar Party
Handmade Holiday Gift Guide
Hair Obsession: LC's Rainbow Tips
Headbands & Pink Highlights
The Man I Love
Top referring sites in 2011
Little Miss Momma
Made by Girl
The Wiegands
Just Lovely Things
Gussy Sews
I have been in the same rut lately & I can't seem to get out of it.
It makes me feel sad.
It makes me feel guilty.
It makes me tired.
It makes we want to change.
When I read Casey's post, it inspired me to write this post.
Being a stay at home Mom is what I always wanted...it is a blessing, it is fulfilling.
But it is also hard.
I have days where I just want to hide.
Days where I count the minutes until Brooks gets home.
Days where I cry.
I feel guilty, selfish, less of a mom, and I wonder if anyone else feels this way.
Am I a bad Mom for feeling this way sometimes?
Am I a bad Mom for needed a break sometimes?
No, I know I am not, I know other Mom's feel this way.
But I am tired to feeling this way.
I am tired of wading in my selfishness.
I want it to stop.
So I need to change.
But change can be hard.
I want to be more joyful
I want to change my attitude
I want to change my heart
I want to be more tender
I want to be more patient
I want to change the ugly things about me
I want to be more loving...especially to strangers
I want my children to see Jesus in me
I want Jesus to be that change in me.
I can't do it without him.
This year I want to let him in...to be that CHANGE in me.
